Secret love, my escape, take me far, far away.
Secret love, are you there? Will you answer my prayer?
Please Take Me Anywhere But Here
Fallen in love with MAYDAY PARADE! *Squeals*
Friday, August 6, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Crying Over You - Taio Cruz
What more can I say? What more can I do? I'm living a lie when I say I'm over you.
Here we are once again.
How can these tears still be rolling down my face again?
I'm Still Crying Over You ♪ ♫
Here we are once again.
How can these tears still be rolling down my face again?
I'm Still Crying Over You ♪ ♫
Friday, July 23, 2010
30 Days In 1
stolen from KEISH
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself
I get too attatched.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
My wicked spelling.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Pulling reverse on the car and nearly killing me & Linor on mothers day :S
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Leaving me behind.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Solve a rubiks cube (:
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Run into Medusa
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Family, Friends, Second Family, Makers of GG, Glee & Avatar-The Last Airbender.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
I freaking wonder..
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Long story ):
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
?????????
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
My ass.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
My.. toes?
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
3oh!3
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down.
dunno
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Linor. I lasted about an hour under the same roof without talking to her.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Mice.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
The Vampire Academy Series changed my views on life. How its so fragile and if you live it in a way that makes you unhappy, then your life meant nothing when you die.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Marriage is marriage. I dont see any difference.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Dont really have an opinion on that. Its just something that doesnt concern me.
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
EW.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Stay in her hospital room every hour possible. Hold her hand. Apologize to no limit. Appreciate that I have someone as amazing as them in my life.
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Been a bitch to someone who never deserved it.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
eat snail at assembly.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
I'm Still Missing You by Tayong. (for Rachel & Keisha)
Umbrella by Rhianna (for Alicia & Thembie)
Best Friend by Auburn ( for Leeboi) except the random bits about comparing to other dudes :S
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
The ppl across the roads strong-ass gate. It saved me and Linor from dying.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
No. Never. Because I have some amazing people in my love. And their love surpasses anything bad about my life.
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Reading. Helps me relax.
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
abortion. Fuck child birth. Im scarred after seeing Quinn from Glee.
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Stop trying to interfere and help others with their friend problems. let them sort it out on their own. :\
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Dear self, You are AMAZING.
You're very strong for others when they need the help. You're always nice to the new kid (doesnt always end up well). You always try your hardest to see past peoples flaws and look at them in a positive way. I love that you put so much trust in certain people. Because it means that you're gonna work extra hard to keep the friendships. you give away so much information to them, knowing that you're risking them telling others, but you have so much faith in them that you dont have to worry about it. I like how even on the saddest day, you can still make someone smile. And most of all... I love your ASS ;)
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself
I get too attatched.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
My wicked spelling.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Pulling reverse on the car and nearly killing me & Linor on mothers day :S
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Leaving me behind.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Solve a rubiks cube (:
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Run into Medusa
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Family, Friends, Second Family, Makers of GG, Glee & Avatar-The Last Airbender.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
I freaking wonder..
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Long story ):
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
?????????
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
My ass.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
My.. toes?
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
3oh!3
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down.
dunno
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Linor. I lasted about an hour under the same roof without talking to her.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Mice.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
The Vampire Academy Series changed my views on life. How its so fragile and if you live it in a way that makes you unhappy, then your life meant nothing when you die.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Marriage is marriage. I dont see any difference.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Dont really have an opinion on that. Its just something that doesnt concern me.
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
EW.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Stay in her hospital room every hour possible. Hold her hand. Apologize to no limit. Appreciate that I have someone as amazing as them in my life.
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Been a bitch to someone who never deserved it.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
eat snail at assembly.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
I'm Still Missing You by Tayong. (for Rachel & Keisha)
Umbrella by Rhianna (for Alicia & Thembie)
Best Friend by Auburn ( for Leeboi) except the random bits about comparing to other dudes :S
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
The ppl across the roads strong-ass gate. It saved me and Linor from dying.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
No. Never. Because I have some amazing people in my love. And their love surpasses anything bad about my life.
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Reading. Helps me relax.
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
abortion. Fuck child birth. Im scarred after seeing Quinn from Glee.
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Stop trying to interfere and help others with their friend problems. let them sort it out on their own. :\
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Dear self, You are AMAZING.
You're very strong for others when they need the help. You're always nice to the new kid (doesnt always end up well). You always try your hardest to see past peoples flaws and look at them in a positive way. I love that you put so much trust in certain people. Because it means that you're gonna work extra hard to keep the friendships. you give away so much information to them, knowing that you're risking them telling others, but you have so much faith in them that you dont have to worry about it. I like how even on the saddest day, you can still make someone smile. And most of all... I love your ASS ;)
Sunday, July 11, 2010
OMFG. My memory likes to shit me off and remember the most fucked up things everrrr OR the things that are reeallyy painful and i dont want to remember them. But some memories I just LOOOOVVE!
1. Spelling... Not too bad of a thing. But it makes people think im a braniac coz i can remember how to spell anything i've misspelled in the past or words that i read in books. (but it sure pays off in English)
2. Horrible childhood memories of minor car crashes. FUUCCCK. Pretty scary nights. Traumatising shit right there.
3. My ENTIRE history with certain people. How we met, First words ever said to each other, Fun times, Bad times, HORRIBLE times, conversations, etc.
It sucks. Because although with some people i never want to forget these things.. for others i just want to erase them from my mind. But I cant. Coz at one stage, they were super important to me. and I find it really hard to forget ANYTHING about them. Please just get the fuck outt my head. I'd rather not repeat our history every night, over and over, til i fall asleep.
Ninaaa x
1. Spelling... Not too bad of a thing. But it makes people think im a braniac coz i can remember how to spell anything i've misspelled in the past or words that i read in books. (but it sure pays off in English)
2. Horrible childhood memories of minor car crashes. FUUCCCK. Pretty scary nights. Traumatising shit right there.
3. My ENTIRE history with certain people. How we met, First words ever said to each other, Fun times, Bad times, HORRIBLE times, conversations, etc.
It sucks. Because although with some people i never want to forget these things.. for others i just want to erase them from my mind. But I cant. Coz at one stage, they were super important to me. and I find it really hard to forget ANYTHING about them. Please just get the fuck outt my head. I'd rather not repeat our history every night, over and over, til i fall asleep.
Ninaaa x
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Skyway Avenue
Coz if you jump I would jump too.
We will fall together
We will fall together
from the buildings ledge.
Never looking back
at what we've done.
We'll say it was love.
Coz I would die for you on
Skyway Avenue
Monday, July 5, 2010
Every now and again.. I like to cry.
I was once called "invincible" because I never cried. Well that was just the physical shit. I tripped on a skipping rope, face-planted then cut my knee and hands open.. and I didnt say a word. I sat on the ground for a bit.. then after a few seconds i burst out into laughter. There a few more stories similar to this where i wouldnt cry. It somehow gave people the image that i dont cry often. and that was actually right. i didnt cry much. (well, aside from pretending to cry to get my sister in trouble). But now... now things are different. Im still known as the girl who hardly ever cries. To most people. Because i dont make it public. But I cry all the time when im alone. And i suppose thats good thing. ya know, cry some tears, let out the pain. It really isnt bad, its just.. different. I just dont know what happened to make me change like this. Maybe its high school, maybe its the new people in my life. Maybe its just a part of growing up. Oh well. I'll live. Im a survivor :)
Friday, July 2, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I found a sheet of paper. It had in big writing, a date written in the centre. Around it were words and drawings etc. that were scribbled down in excitement. I then realised that it was me who made it. I scrunched it up. And with a heavy heart, I threw it in the bin. And although it was only a piece of paper, it seemed like the hardest thing to let go of.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
NEW FRIEND
I know a boy. A twelve-year-old boy. His mother passed away from cancer a few years ago. He always put on a brave face and never cried about his loss in front of anyone at school. I didnt particularly like this boy. I kinda thought he was cocky and stuck up. Then one day, in maths class, he looked so sad and depressed. Everyone asked him why he was so sad, but he didnt talk. Finally, I talked to him privately. I asked him why he was so sad. At first he was hesitant. But after a while he wrote in the back of his book: I love my mum. I knew straight away (considering pretty much everyone knows about his mum). I didnt know what to say. There was silence. When i finally spoke, i was surprised at what I was saying to him. I'm not really comfortable talking about this to people. I told him that I sort of know how he feels. Of course, its a little different because he knew and loved his mother for his whole life and I didnt even know my dad. But i still get the feeling. He started opening up to me about his feelings. He told me about the last time he saw his mum in the hospital. And what makes it worse is that he has to go home to a step-mum. There was so much he told me that he didnt tell any of his guy friends. It was like an epic tale that's told in oscar winning movies. It was so sad. What he went through was horrible. We sat there in silence, crying. I spent the whole day thinking of him and his mum and my dad. No matter how much they asked, I refused to tell anyone why I was crying for the rest of the day.
Now me and that boy are friends. If he ever has another break-down, he knows that he can talk to me. And I will be right there by his side if he ever needs support. And he will be there for me when I need it.
Appreciate what you have (:
I know a boy. A twelve-year-old boy. His mother passed away from cancer a few years ago. He always put on a brave face and never cried about his loss in front of anyone at school. I didnt particularly like this boy. I kinda thought he was cocky and stuck up. Then one day, in maths class, he looked so sad and depressed. Everyone asked him why he was so sad, but he didnt talk. Finally, I talked to him privately. I asked him why he was so sad. At first he was hesitant. But after a while he wrote in the back of his book: I love my mum. I knew straight away (considering pretty much everyone knows about his mum). I didnt know what to say. There was silence. When i finally spoke, i was surprised at what I was saying to him. I'm not really comfortable talking about this to people. I told him that I sort of know how he feels. Of course, its a little different because he knew and loved his mother for his whole life and I didnt even know my dad. But i still get the feeling. He started opening up to me about his feelings. He told me about the last time he saw his mum in the hospital. And what makes it worse is that he has to go home to a step-mum. There was so much he told me that he didnt tell any of his guy friends. It was like an epic tale that's told in oscar winning movies. It was so sad. What he went through was horrible. We sat there in silence, crying. I spent the whole day thinking of him and his mum and my dad. No matter how much they asked, I refused to tell anyone why I was crying for the rest of the day.
Now me and that boy are friends. If he ever has another break-down, he knows that he can talk to me. And I will be right there by his side if he ever needs support. And he will be there for me when I need it.
Appreciate what you have (:
Friday, May 14, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Why do i even bother?
Why do i waste my time on you when you dont even care? I guess its partly my fault for not having the courage to even look at you, let alone talk to you. But it still doesnt stop me from thinking that you just dont give a shit. Some tell me to give up on someone who doesnt even talk to me. Others tell me to have faith and to never give up. I'm kinda leaning more towards giving up. Its not worth it. I just dont want it to happen to me again. It hurt enough the first time. I'm praying that one day you'll just realise, and see it.
So hopefully, someone will come along and help me forget the person who gave me so much to remember...
Nina.x
WALKATHON
Fuuucccckk. Didn't know 10kms of walking would make my feet so damn sore. But at least I looked good in all my blueness! The ENTIRE way I was just pigging out on junk food with CLAYRAY! Salt and vinegar chips, starburst fruits, the natural confectionery co. dinosaurs, mini mars bars, cheese rings, playful penguins, blue icypoles and solo. When we got to the Yarralumla woolsheds, I stayed inside and watched some randoms shuffling. It was... painful. But the limbo was just hilarious! Aparently i 'face-planted' on the floor. Gee boi you're wrong. My hands protected my face from being mangled by the floor.
SLEEPOVER
Just to torture me, my friend also decided that she would take me to the mall afterwards to walk around some more T_T' . But afterwards i had a good sleepover with two of my besties (: We saw the FUNNIEST movie everr! And what makes it even more funnier is that it's not even s'posed to be a comedy. It's horror. The Final Destination.. the new one. definition of HILARITY. in the gorey killing scenes we laughed our asses off at them. I have no idea how it was funny.. it just was.
So thats the latest huppa. PEACE.x Nina
Thursday, April 22, 2010
SCHOOL.SCHOOL.SCHOOL.
I am VERY happy about school starting up again! Most would say I'm crazy, some would agree with me. But I would rather be working hard at school with my friends than being bored at home. Although i did have a bit of fun over these holidays. Like, sleepovers.. Everyone loves em :) Ice skating.. First time in a year, and that SUPER hot guy that I got a picture with made the memory a lot more fun. Malling.. It's not a very rare thing for me.. But when it's with a friend that I haven't seen since Yr 6 graduation.. Yeah, It's HECKERS! And what would my boring days at home be without Facebook, Msn and Blogging? NOTHING. So I thank you internet, for making my holidays that little bit better. So school, for me, is something to look forward to. :) I'll see you soon dear people of Canberra High School!!
ps. Theres that ONE special person I would very much like to see after being deprived of you for two weeks. ;)
Monday, April 19, 2010
You Know What?.. FUCK IT.
I was your friend. But you took me for granted. You were never there when i was going through one of the most painful experiences of my life so far. You just sat back and enjoyed your perfect boyfriend. And then you blame ME for the way we drifted apart. I lost all respect for you wayyy before we started fighting. Because you're just a horrible person. You tried to become a better person when you realised how awful you were being. But you just became worse. You accuse me of changing. Well DUHH! of course I'm going to change! i'm in a different environment now, with different people and different problems. But still, I think not. I havent changed. Your opinion of me changed. Theres a difference. And now that we hate each other, I just dont seem to care. I thought that i would care at least a little bit considering you were one of my closest friends.. but i dont. I just honestly couldn't give a shit about you. And people expected me to be quiet and not say a thing when i faced you for the first time since the fight. But I'm just not like that. I got through the first day of being around you and being calm about it. But now, I'm already sick of it. I cant stand it. I dont want to have to be around you and act like I'm okay with it. Because I'm not. And I wont pretend that i am just because you're friends with my friends. And... I HATE YOU. So NO. I wont do what everyone else does and just put on an act everytime you're around. I'm done doing it, after one day. Thats how impatient i am.
Oh and, a quote from a friend.. Roses are red. Violets are blue. I have five fingers, And the middle one's for you.
So theres your answer. A big, fat, FUCK YOU.
I was your friend. But you took me for granted. You were never there when i was going through one of the most painful experiences of my life so far. You just sat back and enjoyed your perfect boyfriend. And then you blame ME for the way we drifted apart. I lost all respect for you wayyy before we started fighting. Because you're just a horrible person. You tried to become a better person when you realised how awful you were being. But you just became worse. You accuse me of changing. Well DUHH! of course I'm going to change! i'm in a different environment now, with different people and different problems. But still, I think not. I havent changed. Your opinion of me changed. Theres a difference. And now that we hate each other, I just dont seem to care. I thought that i would care at least a little bit considering you were one of my closest friends.. but i dont. I just honestly couldn't give a shit about you. And people expected me to be quiet and not say a thing when i faced you for the first time since the fight. But I'm just not like that. I got through the first day of being around you and being calm about it. But now, I'm already sick of it. I cant stand it. I dont want to have to be around you and act like I'm okay with it. Because I'm not. And I wont pretend that i am just because you're friends with my friends. And... I HATE YOU. So NO. I wont do what everyone else does and just put on an act everytime you're around. I'm done doing it, after one day. Thats how impatient i am.
Oh and, a quote from a friend.. Roses are red. Violets are blue. I have five fingers, And the middle one's for you.
So theres your answer. A big, fat, FUCK YOU.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
VAMPIRE ACADEMY SERIES
Vampire Academy~ Only a true best friend can protect you from your immortal enemies...
Frostbite~ When love and jealousy collide on the slopes, winter break turns deadly...
Shadow Kiss~ What if following her heart means Rose could lose her best friend forever?
Blood Promise~ Love and loyalty run deeper than blood...
Spirit Bound~ Dimitri gave Rose the ultimate choice. But she chose wrong...
Saturday, April 17, 2010
HOLIDAYS
I hate the holidays. It sucks cow nipples. I never do ANYTHING. I have to hear about other people going to the coast or going overseas or at least getting out of their own suburb! Whilst hearing about these fun-filled holidays from other people, I'm stuck at home doing shit all. Occasionally I get to hang out with my friends at the mall or something simple like that, but that's the best it gets. Honestly, the majority of my holidays has been spent webbing with LEEBOI. I've also spent it dealing with fake bitches that have no lives. Seriously, they act like I've done something wrong and because of that 'something' it gives them the right to call me names and make stupid accusations about me. Just coz they don't have lives, they have to come along and make mine so much more crappier. So yeah, that pretty much sums up my holidays. I hope yours is a lot better than mine. Actually, that's a lie. I hope your holidays is even more miserable than mine is, so I have something to feel better about. Ninaa.x
Friday, April 16, 2010
BLOGGING.
I decided to make a blog and write about my thoughts, feelings and happenings. Usually when I read other blogs, the writer talks about things that they need to get out. Things that upset them. Unfortunately, I have A LOT of things I need to get out. But I'm not just gonna write about soppy, depressing bullshit all the time. There's still all the good things about me and my life that I would like to share. So now I can get used to writing a blog instead of posting an extremely long facebook status. ENJOY!!
Ninaa(:
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